(via unreactive)
my pride is so strong until it comes to you
honestly im so upset that im not completely happy. like this is such a difficult point in my life and i have no idea how to handle it. im sad im not happy in college. im sad im not fulfilling the social norm of a college student. im sad that im sad. college is supposed to be the best time of your life and im not at that point. i feel like im stuck in a rut where i cant see myself continuing life as a human being. i cant imagine myself as an adult with a job and a house and their own responsibilities. im so scared and im so alone in my own head. i hate how it makes others upset and makes them miserable being around me. i know (or at least hope) things will get better once i transfer schools but even then not all my problems are fixed. i feel like so much of my life has been spent hating myself and hating my mind and how i think and im so done with it. i dont want to be like this anymore and i know i need help but its so hard to ask for it because my family is already going through so much right now, its too overwhelming. im hoping after finals ill get to relax and enjoy my break. i hate change.
It’s not like the movies.
No one really wants to listen
To someone crying for
Help.
(via laugh-til-ya-fart)